Not Far

I'm counting down trying to ignore the truth,
but it's always coming back to me again
Wondering if wrong can be right somehow
as I'm trying to comprehend why me
When something so far away left far behind
only leaving me feeling incapable of change
Where I'm dreaming it was not true but fake
seemingly sleeping is easier than being awake
It is not far and it is not right of you
It is not fair for me to feel incomplete
hurting from the muscles that are holding
my chest upright and free to breathe
still I'm leaving the skin that once was safe
to become the one i longed to be in the end